I am searching for my voice as an artist. Over the years, I’ve continued to grow in my skill, learn new techniques, and discover more about what I’m capable of creating. But somewhere along the way, I realized that developing as an artist wasn’t just about getting better at painting. I wanted to find my style. Something that felt like me.
I’ve always admired artist whose work is so recognizable that you can look at a painting and immediately know who created it. I’ve dreamed of having that kind of artistic identify myself. You know, of someone looking at a painting and saying ” That’s a Crystal painting”. And I want to find out what that looks like. I’ve tried going to a blank canvas without a plan, without a sketch, and without a clear idea of where I wanted to end up. More times than I can count, I’ve found myself staring at something I didn’t like, feeling frustrated, and eventually giving up.
But lately, I’ve been wondering….. What if I kept going?
What if the paintings I walked away from weren’t failures, but opportunities to learn how to work through uncertainty?
What if finding my voice meant learning to trust the process, even when I couldn’t see where it was taking me?
So, I’m trying again. This time, I have been challenged to take a step outside of my comfort zone and work on a much larger canvas. And that is exactly what I’m doing. I don’t have all the answers. I don’t know exactly what this painting will become, and I am learning to be okay with that. I’m learning that creating something of my own might require me to let go of the need to control every detail and give myself room to explore, make mistakes, and discover things I never would have planned. As I work through this painting, I want to take you along with me. I will be sharing the process, the decisions, the changes, the challenges, and the little discoveries that happen along the way. Maybe finding my voice won’t happen all at once. Maybe it will happen one brushstroke at a time.
Welcome to my journey of Finding My Voice as an artist. I’ll be sharing updates here as the painting develops, so they may come a little sporadically.
Thank you for your patience, your encouragement, and for being here while I figure this out. Let’s see what happens.